A GASP FOR AIR

 
A Gasp for Air | InBetween the Curls

Hello you lovely readers, I know I've been a little MIA lately - scratch that, very MIA! 

I believe I started writing this post a few weeks ago but was hesitant at the mere thought of publishing it. Sometimes it can be very taboo to write about something so personal, but we all go through ups and downs and it's ok to allow others to see that not everything is so magical as it seems on good ol' social media. And to hell with taboo this and taboo that; it's my blog and I feel that many of you, especially those creative minds can relate to this post. And what better time to publish this than on Mental Health Awareness Week in the UK?

As our late, legendary Prince once said, "Dearly beloved we are gathered here today to get through this thing called life." It sounds a bit dramatic, but I totally get what he was referring. As much as I enjoy life and its simple nature, it can get overwhelming and just turn into this spiraling domino effect of uncertainties. I think it's safe to say that we've all been there; it's just hard to see that when you feel like you're drowning and the rest of the world is living this colorful dream, or at least it seems... 

As fantastic as it may appear to be a freelance designer, not everything is cotton candy and rainbows. We all see the flexibility we have, and enjoyment of projects that we are passionate about, but what about the things you don't see? Like, will I get more clients next month? Will I have enough money for the future? Am I growing in my skills set? All of these questions are the things others don't see. And when these questions start to build up, it can really weigh on you to the point where you're physically in pain. Hello! That was me these past few months. The stress I had created was causing me to have muscle spasms - not particularly fun. Sometimes, I get these anxieties about my next step in life and that little spark of doubt can turn into a really big fire of questioning everything around me. I'm human, and it's definitely one of my downfalls- you can say I'm trying to work on that. The tough question is, how does one get out of it? Well, as much support as I got from my friends and family, unfortunately the only person that could get me out of the funk was myself. I know, I wish there was a magic potion. I literally had to stop wallowing in my crap and continue on, so I booked a flight to New York - HA! A holiday and something to look forward to always seems to boost my spirit. It's a good 'band-aid' for the meantime but not the solution for the long haul, so I continued pursuing my goals for the month and once I got the ball rolling, things started to magically fall into place. Weird how that works, huh? I'm a true believer that things happen for a reason, but I also know that when you're in a rut it's easy to see the glass half empty. I guess what doesn't kill you can only make you stronger.  

I don't want to bore you and go on and on about the subject, but I can only reiterate that we all go through things that are not ideal; not everything you see on social media is the full picture. What I can promise is that there is light on the other side, you just have to dig at it.

I hope everyone has a great rest of their week and know that they're not alone! 

P.S. How lovely is that image?! I couldn't have found a more perfect photo to mirror this post :) 

 

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